via Daily Prompt: Ovation
After years worth of hiding, afraid of anything that could possibly go wrong, I was given a diagnosis I had not expected. It is amazing how a “fateful” diagnosis can open a persons eyes…bringing to realization all the things that they had truly been blind to for decades past. By the end of 2015 I knew that, if I were to continue, that nothing…absolutely NOTHING, could remain as it had been. I truly heard the song, “Live Like You Were Dying” by Tim McGraw for the first time in June of last year. There were so many things I had on my “To Do” list, that, at the rate I had been going, would never get done. That all changed once I came to grips with my diagnosis. Did I want to spend the remaining years of my life wishing I could, or was I going to pull myself out of this pity pot and start living.
I chose the latter. There is absolutely nothing today that is the same as it was a year ago for me. I have learned that faith truly does move mountains. I have seen tremendous mountains moved in my life over the past 12 months. I have met a power greater than myself, and that as long as I listen to this Higher Power, no matter how insane or impossible it may seem in the moment, during a period of only being able to see a step or two ahead, that all things truly do work out for the good…not just good, but so much better than I could have ever created on my on plans and vision.
I used to fear traffic, time tables, what other people might think of me. I have faced many of my demons this year. I have overcome my fear of crowds and attended many venues. I have stood for ovations of others, and have had the honor of receiving them, myself. I have conquered mountains, and seeped in the salty waters of the sea. I have felt deeper, climbed higher, heard the hearts of others, and seen things that could only be given in the spiritual realm. It is a beautiful place. I have finally started to Face Everything And Recover! Recover from that which I had been so lost in that I had not, before the diagnosis, realized how dead I truly was.